moon is gone, again

10 o'clock moon is gone, again.

Im lost. tired. sick. stoned..

How i wish e pure moon back, hope it is the scar on my thumb, stay there forever.

****shits

*I hope im a bit stronger than i really am.

*I was trying very hard to be the child that's in my dad's mind for the past 19 years, and now i realise, i cant, i cant be the child in his mind. It's only what he wants me to be, what he thinks is right for me, what he hopes i can become. not myself. I hate it. I live 19 years only for one's hope. And now, what is me?

*I must be strong, be grateful.

holymoon

Suddenly feel like blogging today, not today, on my way walking back home just now i can say. on e same old narrow pathway i use to walk from and back home one whole goddam year. and guess what, e moon is back to its same old position one month ago, and i like it. i dunno why, i just like it when it's right on top of me while i walking back home everyday after work at 10pm onwards. Especially when it's not tat cloudy and e moon is damn clear, just like today, round like a bitch's butt and shinning into my eyes. holymoon, i like it.

I got 3 days off starting from tomo, if those asses do not change any last minute thing and call me. I think i will enjoy this 3 days off, do need some good rest for both my mind and legs. Make full use of it? not really sure what im going to do but somethings already came into my mind...

Friday will be my old gal's big birthday, and im keep on telling myself dun forget e day, cos u know, im bad about remembering dates.

****Some shit

*While im on my way back home inside the lift, my dad's msg came again:"When u have a clear goal in ur mind, u wont feel tired no matter how." make sense? It really does lightening me a bit, i mean, a bit.

*Wanna catch up with dear bro Bruno.

*Im going to finish the "The catcher in e rye" about another reading time. Thanks to Tammi for the book.